day 5...accidentally found out my contact in your list has been downgraded to 'friends' category from 'b' list.
how should i feel now? my heart aches so much and i don't know what to do with it.
haven't been sleeping well. i'm so afraid of getting up in the middle of the sleep at night and when the thought invades my mind again i won't be able to go back to sleep and escape from the ache again.
now i know how it feels when the pain goes beyond the point where it doesn't make you tear anymore.
this wasn't the holiday i was looking forward at all. my days are so free now the thoughts and pains slip in easily and occupy me entirely.
my heart is so empty yet painful.
found our bb song in my phone, broke down listening to it.
wondering if you would ever sing it to me again.
